Will I Ever Go Out?

Anyone who knows me or has known me at any point in this lifetime, will always ask one question:

"Will you ever go out?"

Well. That is really a tough question for me to answer, to be honest.

And yes. I go out.

FYI, I am not talking about BTech - because I was a big NOO! guy for every single invitation I got from friends to go out, and eventually they stopped asking me anyway- even I would have stopped asking, if someone says NO always. Honestly, not much of a difference - and since my sister was in the same city, it didn't bother me much either then, though it stings a little now. Current working days are not very different either, but I will say - I did go out and hang out with my office friends for a bit (not a bit, maybe some good 1 year), before the NOO! guy in me woke up again. And you can guess what follows.

Fast forward to present - 3 years of work experience. I said I go out, and I also said the NOO! guy returned after 1 year. So what happened in the remaining 2 years?

Learnt PostgreSQL and got deep expertise in my domain - oh! Sorry, wrong blog. Back to the topic.

I worked on myself (not at 100%, but still), got better state of mind, and then one day, my Instagram feed showed a "solo date" reel, which stuck me in mind.

Experimental Day Out

On one fine day - not a weak day, mind you; dressed up, wore new shoes, went to a cafe ~20KM from where I stay, sat by myself and ordered coffee and pasta.

There were friends, families and couples sitting around me, eating, chatting and laughing. And there was me - sitting all by myself, sipping coffee and playing that one feel-good romantic song on Spotify.

You think awkward right? of course it was, but I sat there through it all to complete the very last bite of the food I ordered. But I kinda liked it, be it taking small length videos, some random pics of random places and food.

So, the catch is - yes, I go out. But alone.

The Tradition

Since then, I went to movies, restaurants, cafes and even a cricket match - all by myself. Sitting at a table, earphones in, eating. Watching a movie in a theatre, no earphones there, FYI. Sitting in a stadium surrounded by groups cheering together. And then me, just me, in the middle of all of it.

I won't say I didn't miss going out with people, but at the same time I enjoyed my company after a very very long time, after a series of really bad years.

The only downside of this tradition is "It is costly" and only my wallet is suffering for it :)

To Anyone Reading This

It is not like, I would love always go out all by myself, I do love going trips, outings, some gossips and enjoying with friends, even I had some of the great memories in my previous trips, and memories don't have to be so expensive or expressive, a 10-20 minute conversation will do.

So if any of you have plans to include me, just ping me. I would love to come. Fair warning, there is NOO! guy still in me, so I might say No, but don't take it to heart.

See Yaa!!